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Untamable as the sea My wants and needs will ebb like waves Never to be quieted Never to be satiated There was once a time I believed That I was satisfied Ready and able to stretch my roots deep Into the soil where I lay But before long my limbs were aching And straining upwards Up into the milky white sky And I remembered that I am not solid Not unchanging as a tall oak Not uniform and yielding as my sisters made of bark I remember that I am not made of moss and wood But of salt and sea foam Always changing Always wanting Moving from shore to shore just to Kiss the sand and shells Embracing the bodies that come willingly to me But stinging t

I feel the monster clawing up my throat Begging to be let out White noise screaming in my ears Turn the music up louder so maybe for once my mind will stop churning spilling over and out onto the page I tear at my skin Want to feel something anything Couldn’t bear to be numb again not that way again Listen to me Don’t just look at me See me When was the last time you looked at my eyes and felt my thoughts? Knew my heart? So I left and when I left so did my heart a part of me gone forever I can’t get back wouldn’t want back Nothing really changed but still I changed Inside in agony Outwardly content Passionate like a